Resistance. Self Sabotage. Procrastination

Resistance. Self Sabotage. Procrastination.

The labels of parts of us that hold up action, that put in a wrench in the path of some goals.

Pressure, blame and shame also surround such labels.

As if a person is at fault, or weak, or somehow failing when resisting kinds of energy show up. 

I invite you to consider another way of relating to Resistance:
Resistance, Self Sabotage, and Procrastination are energies in a person disagreeing with other parts of the person.
These Resisting energies have a valid point of view, and valid concerns.

Usually the conflict lies between Manager type parts - who align strongly with our culture, valuing productivity, success, getting things done, making money, recognition - and Exile parts (vulnerable wounded ones) or Firefighter parts (wanting comfort now).
(These Parts distinctions are based on Internal Family Systems.)

The Manager type goals are worthy goals - however they dominate our society, often at the expense of rest, nurture, pleasure, caretaking, and tending to the vulnerable energies that live inside each and every one of us. 

I love Resisting parts (and Self Sabotage and Procrastination), because they wave the flag of disagreement. They clue us in to our complexities that go far beyond the goals of success, as defined by our general western culture. They bring diversity to our inner world.

When we slow down with these parts, they invite us to notice where we need healing or growth. They invite us to question our bigger picture.
 

What truly brings satisfaction?
How and what is my best contribution at this time?
Are my actions and values in full alignment in all ways?
Am I touching the edge of partnership with the universe?
What needs healing in me, in order that I might become my fullest self? 

Inviting love and appreciation for your full spectrum of parts and inner complexities!
Love,
marta

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Deep Healing for Anxiety

What would your life be like if anxiety wasn't a dominant visitor? Who would you be? Who is the bigger YOU underneath that anxiety?

While anxious parts of us have worked so hard to keep us safe - on alert or high alert! - they are not the full truth of who we are. These parts might take over and feel like the voice of truth, they might be so close to you that they feel like the real you.

Sometimes real stresses in life deserve the alert status, and there's plenty of that survival stress going around these days. However, often the roots of our response to stress go back to three main nodes:

• Childhood

• Ancestral burdens and legacies

• Karmic patterns

It's like wearing Soul glasses. We came into this life with some schmutz on the glasses from ancestral and karma threads. And then childhood adds some more gunk. Most of us need some help to clear away those layers of built up dirt and old energy. Then as the layers clear, we can see the world, our part in it, who we are, and be more and more of our true selves. 

My favorite methods of deep healing all connect with these layers of anxiety roots:

• IFS (Internal Family Systems) was the first process that provided significant help for my chronic anxiety. The IFS process is so loving, so accepting, so welcoming - today I see it as a magical little glowing house. When one enters this space of acceptance and witnessing, maybe in companion with the right practitioner for you, much can shift and release and heal. 
   

• Ancestral healing through IFS - we welcome the parts of our ancestors that stored the traumas - as well as the gifts and strengths of our ancestors. None of us have an unburdened ancestral lineage. Basic survival ran the lives for so much of history. We all have this in our ancestral lines somewhere, and that signal is strong!
  Connecting to our ancestors and releasing their burdens frees up the incredible gifts that our ancestors want to share with us. 
   

• Karma release process greatly reduces triggering feelings. This tool has helped me so much in letting go of blame for the other person/people/system. It's not letting them off the hook or giving a free pass - but it unhooks me from them and their choices. 
  The Karma Release Process leads to deeper empowerment. I use this when I get triggered by being judged or feel powerless to a system or person, which had been a big source of anxiety for me.   
   

• Aura Transformations update the whole energy system of a person.  The New Time aura has a stronger energy boundary, and connects you more deeply to your intuition, passion, and Spirit. If you feel on constant defense in the world, or if you are uncertain of your purpose in life, or lost the passion and drive for your purpose, then an Aura Transformation might call to you.
  What the heck is an Aura Transformation? — Marta Johnson (innerartistry.space)
  aura transformation chicago — Marta Johnson (innerartistry.space)

And the extra fabulous news: there are so many ways of deep healing available these days. From acupuncture to biofield tuning to soul retrievals to psychedelics to all flavors of therapy - many, many options. Of course, the most important question - what is effective for YOU, at this moment in time? 

If you're interested in trying any of these methods - IFS coaching, Karma Release, or Aura Transformation, please schedule a free Connecting Call with me. 30 minutes together with no pressure or strings attached. Sometimes people have the free 30 minute call and they get what they need for the next bit of growth in their life! 

Sending love for your journey!
Marta

PS - Here are two other articles about anxiety:
Dealing with and healing anxiety 
Managing Anxiety.

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What the heck is an Aura Transformation?

Some people are interested in the results. Some like to know the theories. Some like both! The webinar on Friday will cover both results and theories of Aura Transformation. And this email is a bit more about the theory of this energy process.

Every system develops their own lingo to describe what's happening. Especially when describing energy, words do the best they can to convey something that is beyond words.

An aura is one way to name the energy that belongs to you, that fills your body and space around your body. 
In this system of Aura Transformation, Old Time energy is what we all evolved with for thousands, millions of years. About 30 years ago, children started being born with a new aura, a new kind of energy structure, and that began the change into New Time energies. 

This unique process of an Aura Transformation does two essential things:

• It dissolves the old aura (Old Time energy) and brings in the new aura (New Time energy);

• It pulls your spirit into your body, which takes about a year to fully settle in (crystallize), which then is a permanent change.

One's spirit is connected to, but outside the aura, in the Old Time structure. That's why meditation or other energy practices help in the Old Time energy - because there's not direct access to one's spirit. It takes time and practice cutting through the layers of conditioning and wounds to get to that deeper, calmer place of Essential Self. It might take a lot of healing work to be able to really listen to all parts of you, and decipher which parts connect to this deeper wisdom of spirit. (At least, it took me a lot of time and effort!)

With the spirit IN the body, intuition and knowing strengthens. Connection to one's purpose becomes clearer and easier to act upon. You get to be more of YOU, find yourself, become who you came to this earth to become. 

When one has the updated aura, one's boundaries are naturally enhanced with a lot less effort. The new kind of boundaries often come from a place of simplicity, so there's less need to push or force a boundary with others. 
(Not to say it's all sunshine and roses. There is still a place for hard boundaries. And at the same time, it's so freeing to relax and slip out of the battles and disengage from some of the fighting energy that's in us, around us, in personal relationships, and in our culture.)

If this piques your curiosity, please consider joining thefree webinar on Friday,where I will show fancy slides and pictures and talk more about all things aura, and answer questions. This is a whole new way of contemplating one's energy, so it takes some time to wrap one's head around the concept. I will send out a recording if you can't make it live.

What the heck is an Aura Transformation - Friday, May 26th, 12 pm CDT

I am passionate about Aura Transformation because it is strongly helping me to be me. This has been a goal of mine for a long time, indirectly since young adulthood, and then directly for the last ten years. IFS (Internal Family Systems) is/was a huge boost forward in this way as well, in warmly welcoming all parts of me. I still use IFS as part of my personal practice (and with clients), but now it is much faster. Feelings still come up! But when they do, I unblend from my parts faster, I bring Self energy and love to myself easier, all in all, I feel bigger than my parts and that feels so good!

Here you can read more about results from an Aura Transformation, which we'll also discuss in the webinar on Friday.

With love for the journey,
Marta

Aura Transformation sessions in Chicago

You have a desire to be your own authentic self, to be more you.
You're probably curious about emotions, energy, and looking for legit ways to heal, grow, and enjoy life.  You want to be less burdened by wounds, family pressure, and cultural burdens.

Aura Transformation offers all of that. It is an energy upgrade modality that provides better energy boundaries, and pulls in your spirit so that more of YOU can show up in the world, in a simpler, more direct way.

Aura Transformation might be for you if:
 You've done loads of healing work on yourself and you're ready for a big boost forward;
 You know your purpose, but get hung up on problems, feelings, logistics. You want a more balanced way to engage passionately with what you're here to do!
 What is your purpose? What are you here to do? You're looking for meaning and direction;
 You have trouble staying embodied;
 You want to be less swayed by other's opinions, energy or influence. You're ready to be in  your natural power and boundaries and authenticity;
 More joy in life please!
 High sensitivity brings challenges and gifts - and you'd like more of the gifts to benefit you!
 You're overwhelmed easily - by friends, by family, by kids, by work. 

Here are some things you can expect from an Aura Transformation:

• Connection and clarity about your mission and purpose in life, plus much easier to take action on your purpose.

• So much more ease staying in your body and easier to get grounded or regrounded as bumps come up in life.

• Your intuition will get stronger.

• Your natural boundaries will become clearer and simpler. 

• It will be easier to be with other people, especially the younger generations, as the younger generations all have some amount of the new aura structure, depending upon when they were born.

Not all of these happen immediately, but these are some of the biggest things people notice as your new aura integrates (crystalizes). 

Aura Transformation is a unique energy upgrade process that helps You be YOU! 

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I'm offering a webinar on Friday, May 26th, 12 pm CDT.

The process, what to expect during and after, and a bit of my story.

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I've been doing all sorts of healing work for 10 years, and I kept saying, "there has to be a faster and easier way forward". Now, 5 months after my Aura Transformation, I'm engaging with life in such a new way. I'm basically not afraid of life or people anymore, and much more capable of dealing with the bumps and bruises as they happen, staying true to myself. This isn't some froofy bypass method. Your stuff still needs to be dealt with, but more of you is available to deal with life.

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Since this is a hands on process, I'll be offering Aura Transformations in my house, NW side of Chicago. Two sessions are needed, over two days. First one is about 3.5-4 hours, second session is 1.5 hours.

If you're interested in an Aura Transformation, or have questions, let's set up a 15 minute Connection Call.
Warmly,
marta

Invitation to a healing adventure in Scotland

I embark upon the next leg of my personal healing and growing adventure by joining the Aura Mediator training in Scotland in April. You are invited to join the adventure and receive an Aura Transformation.

We need clients with which to practice. I've heard that the energy and vibe at these trainings are very special, with nine clients, six students, and one trainer. And the quality of your Aura Transformation is just as excellent as if you worked with an experienced Aura Mediator - it's all about turning on your own energy possibilities, and it's all in you already. 

Why might a person be interested in an Aura Transformation?
I felt pulled to have an Aura Transformation after hearing that it is like a new energy skin, an upgrade in one's energy boundary, a deeper connection to purpose and ability to follow through on said purpose, and matching the energy of our kids.

The first thing I noticed after my Aura Transformation was feeling more solid in my body, and this continues to grow. I am connecting more easily to intuition and my follow through is coming along with more ease. During my Aura Transformation I connected with the very subtle unconscious decision to be invisible, and that old pattern is falling away. Being more visible and actively engaged in my life is arising with excitement and internal agreement.

In the past, I would have to work with many of my parts to make decisions, feeling unsure of what was the authentic path forward for me. Now it's like indecision is melting and clarity emerges suddenly.

Soon after my Aura Transformation I set about making plans for four trips this spring - this is unheard of for me. My old pattern was a dominant feeling of "how can I know what I will need next month, in two months, in three months? I can't plan that far ahead!" But now I have some deep knowings and instincts that pull me forward - and a newer trust in myself that even if the trips turn out to be duds, I can handle it better than ever before. 

And more positive changes developing in so many arenas and so many levels.

I will mention that I have had some big anxiety waves - it feels like a deep cleaning of the old energy - and after each wave passes, I get more clarity, more confidence, more solid in me. It's what I've been after for a long, long time, and I am happy to be on this trajectory. And one of the coolest things is that the Aura Transformation takes about 1.5 years to really solidify, so there is more to develop from just this one energy treatment.

If this sound intriguing, here is an excerpt of what Sarah Jennings, trainer for the upcoming program, has to say about Aura Transformations:

People who are attracted to AuraTransformation tend to have one or two or ALL of the following:

• Are wanting to grow, expand their consciousness, take big leaps on their healing journey.

• Want to maximize their energy levels, step into their mission/dharma more fully.

• Need to do loads of energy or body work everyday just to be ‘ok’***[this was me]

• Feel that life is happening to them. Somehow they are floating through life.

• Feel disconnected, have lost the drive and focus. Where has it gone?

• Feel they lack energetic protection, are overwhelmed around a lot of people. Need to isolate from people a lot. ***[this was me]

• They work closely with people everyday. They don't want to absorb or take people's 'stuff' home such as nurses, counsellors, massage therapists, teachers, people in leadership and energy workers.

• Feel knackered or frazzled easily around their children or grandchildren. ***[this was me]

• Want to align to the young people of today (Crystal & Indigo children), to be on the same wavelength and communicate better with them (certainly parents, carers and teachers of young people born today to now 35 years old)

• Know that there must be another way.

• Have done a lot of work and want to clear the last karmic, ancestral, emotional patterns that keep repeating.

• People who love the feeling of burning for their passion and feeling the clarity of living and speaking their truth and just want to get stuff done!
  
  AuraTransformation is an uber grounding treatment that can take over a year to fully integrate. It really helps you land on earth, it helps humans feel better in their skin and helps them reclaim their power and fill the energy coffers up to be able to make more happen in their lives for real- not just dream, and wish and think about it.

You can read Sarah Jennings' full post on facebook.

If this intrigues you, I invite you to check out this ebook or this 2 hour in-depth video.  These two resources have lots more info about what exactly is an Aura Transformation.

The details:

• Scotland - seaside town near Edinburgh

• April 21-23 (needed for sessions for two days)

• £170 (I believe this is about half the normal rate)

• Hands on sessions (4-6 hours), which feel good and healing - and then the benefits keep growing for the next year or more. 

And if you're not ready to travel to Scotland for this experience, but are interested in an Aura Transformation, I will be offering this once I complete my training.

With love,
Marta
PS - none of this is to suggest that my deep passion in Internal Family Systems has lessened. I'm finding the new aura to be a great companion to the deep healing that IFS offers. The new aura seems to be expediting my own personal process with IFS, and attuning me even better to clients. 

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Managing Anxiety

Dear Ones,
Obviously, anxiety is a pretty big topic. People dedicate their lives to studying it, writing about it, helping people with it. I'm pretty passionate about it myself, because when it takes over, I've found it can blind the whole body and mind to other possibilities. It's hard to find the deeper truth of who we are when anxiety flows.

And yet, even though anxiety creates many uncomfortable feelings - we can have so much compassion for where it comes from. There are always reasons. There's always a history or story or ancestral or karmic link to why anxiety shows up. The reasons are real, and those reasons can be healed and released. 

We can be kind and warm to anxiety, welcome it,
learn from it, transform it.

Going on a journey to heal anxiety will definitely help you get to know yourself better as each layer comes up to heal and release. Healing anxiety is letting go of old energy and welcoming in more of the possibilities of you, honing in on purpose and meaning that's unique to you.

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Addressing anxiety falls into two categories - healing and coping/managing.

Both ways are useful! Both are needed! You might lean one way or the other, and following your own intuition and what excites you or calls to you or pulls you in will lead you on the best path for you.

Below are several tools that I use regularly for coping with and managing anxiety. The next email will contain my favorite tools for transforming and healing anxiety. 

• Shaking and trembling. When fear runs through the body, adrenaline releases. In fight or flight, the adrenaline is put to use right away through action. When that adrenaline charge races, I shake and wiggle and make weird sounds. Or find the way to move your body that appeals to you - dancing, jogging, wrestling. I love that this is free and easy!
  
  Here's a cool video showing an impala playing dead (freeze) while under attack from a cheetah, and when the danger has passed, it moves to trembling and shaking, and then it suddenly runs away. Some people say the trauma doesn’t get stuck if it is released through trembling and shaking and movement. Trigger warning - the cheetah has the impala already tackled, and swings its neck around a bit, but the impala does escape. Impala in and slowly out of collapsed immobility - YouTube
   

• Alternatively, sometimes the anxiety needs a good snuggle under the covers. Listen to your body, see what it most wants. Curled up, soft belly protected, maybe under blankets. I've found that doing this with intention shifts the freeze feeling faster than trying to push through it or ignore it. 
   

• Rub this Parasympathetic essential oil behind the ears. I used this a ton during the pandemic, and now I use it when I'm in the height of distress. An easy trick that really does seem to help in the moment.
   

• If you enjoy guided meditations, here is one I created for Gently Connecting with Anxiety. (I included it in the last letter as well.)

There are so many ways to address anxiety, and perhaps you have other tools that are working well for you. I'm curious to know what you turn to when anxiety comes up, if you'd like to share!

With love,
marta

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